almost leaving louisville

Hello. I have a mere two weeks left at Actors Theatre. I'm pretty freaked out. I don't know if I've really made the world's greatest impression upon the brilliant women of the literary department. However, I can usually come up with a good story or something to fill the silence.

Speaking of silence, that office is too quiet. I wish I could see what it's like there during Humana. What an exciting time that must be. I also think it would be so crazy if one of the scripts I've read this summer ended up in Humana. That is pretty unlikely, but it would be awesome.

I do want to go back to see Glengarry Glen Ross. So I will.

I don't know. Basically I just think that the people who run the literary department are so unique and dynamic and I wish I could be like each of them in some way. Maybe one day I will be. I wonder what I will be like when I am a real adult with a real job. But working at this theatre sort of reminds me how hard it is to

A. Get a job at a good theatre (it sort of seems like you just need to know a lot of people, and have good timing, and whatnot...and I hope I have that)
B. Be a playwright

And I want to do both of those things.

Things I'll miss about Louisville:

1. The strangeness of it
2. The beautiful parks
3. The winding roads
4. Dairy Kastle
5. The Victorian houses in Old Louisville
6. Cherokee Park
7. St. James court

And some other stuff, too. I hope I've grown here. I really hope that, most of all. I just think it's too early to tell. It's been too fast. Much too fast. But also, when I think about another few weeks of sitting in my grey cubicle under the florescent light, it makes my brain melt. I lose brain activity when I'm in there, unless we're listening to everyone at Actors talk about how they got there. It's just so exciting to me. But when I'm sitting in a cubicle, and it's silent, it makes me miss atmospheres where everyone's on top of each other and it's noisy and chaotic and I can concentrate more and make more interesting points/discoveries when I write, or when I read, or when I write about reading a play, or whatever. I really just don't like the atmosphere there, even though I like the people. And I like the people so much that I wish they were there more, even though I know it's important to go to a bunch of summer festivals and all.

I know this wasn't too exciting. But I have so many mixed feelings about leaving here, and everything, that it's sad/also exciting, because school will be great.

Stuff i'm excited about for U of I:

1. Moving into 712
2. Murphy's
3. Starting a band with Isaac
4. LAURIE CARLOS
5. Classes
6. Valleri Hohman
7. Other people I like
8. Sunday dinner
9. Boxed wine