I don't know if I'm having a lot of feelings or if I don't have any feelings at all. Probably I just have the normal amount of feelings. That's usually what happens.

Recently, Amy and I discovered that we both decide how we're supposed to feel about something and then feel that way, even if it's not how we would approach it otherwise. For example, I had dinner with someone tonight and I wasn't really nervous but I felt like I was supposed to be so then I was. But then I stopped being pretend nervous and, turns out, I was actually nervous!

It's all very confusing, actually. But that's what's in my brain right now. Oy.

Jameequa

I get to go to school tomorrow, la la la.

Reunited and it feels so good!

Hello!

Annah and Amy are both home now and it is such a great thing. Also, yes.

That's all for now. My bedroom is purple now, and not Eleni's anymore. OLD KARMA OUT, NEW KARMA IN!

Also, rganders and I are bff and I like it.

Love love.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I LIVE HERE!

Hello, I live in your apartment, Annah and Kinzie! Yeah, I do!

And there is a sidewalk being built outside. Right this very moment. And we might put our handprints in the wet cement but we don't know when the cement will dry. Or we could put something else in there, what could we put in there? Maybe a dollar. Or a photo of Sam Shepard.

Anyway, this is going to be the best year yet. I just know it. Annah, why aren't you here yet? Oh, yes. Because you are a career woman. Hum dee do.

Here are my goals for this year:

Do my Abs of Steel 2 workout tape 5 times weekly
Be a good waitress at Siam Terrace
Be a good student at the University of Illinois
Write a lot
Read books sometimes

Here are my priorities this year:

Shaking my ass to good music
Seeing my friends
Writing some words

Gotta go, I'm painting my rooooom!

Turns out

A good ol' chatty watty on the telly with a certain alipman2 is all I needed to feel better. I'm deangstified now. Next year, I will only need to enter the bathroom of angst to chill out but, for now, I've got more primitive (and more effective?) measures to resort to.

Tonight, I listened to Pretty Isabella music and reminisced. It was cool being in a band. Maybe again some day. Though I didn't accomplish my summer goal of learning to play the ukulele well. Plans change.

I need to pack.

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Kinzie

Angst

I thought I could handle it but I think I can't. So now I'm being dumb about it. That's all.

i have to pack up my summer existence today. it's pretty stressful. then i have to live out of a suitcase until i come home. home in a week and a day! i'm so excited!

nuh nuh nuh nuh nuh

I'm just sitting in my room listening to some music, eating M&M's and looking out the windowwwww.

I'm used to saying "I can't believe it's over" but I can believe that my internship is over, because it did exactly what it was supposed to do. I met some really great people and I learned what I want to do and what I don't want to do with theatre, and I developed some new literary obsessions. They include Lorraine Hansberry (which started my sophomore year of high school but has now reached new heights after reading To Be Young, Gifted and Black) and then there's David Mamet, and I can't talk about that right now because I might get too excited.

Goodbye to you soon, Louisville. You have treated me well. Hopefully I'll be back someday. There are too many good bands coming to play in your area for me not to.

Plus there's Glengarry Glen Ross and nothing can keep me away from that.