I don't know if I'm having a lot of feelings or if I don't have any feelings at all. Probably I just have the normal amount of feelings. That's usually what happens.

Recently, Amy and I discovered that we both decide how we're supposed to feel about something and then feel that way, even if it's not how we would approach it otherwise. For example, I had dinner with someone tonight and I wasn't really nervous but I felt like I was supposed to be so then I was. But then I stopped being pretend nervous and, turns out, I was actually nervous!

It's all very confusing, actually. But that's what's in my brain right now. Oy.