Thoughts

Every so often I feel like going on a wild road trip, thinking I just need to see more parts of the country.

I don't know where I want to go, though. I just think, though, that it's important to remind ourselves how small we are every once and a while. Or daily, really. It's not that we're completely insignificant, but there's so much out there in the world that we haven't seen yet, so I don't know why I hold and hold and hold onto things. It's not as if I'll forget them, I remember so much.

But I think it's unhealthy to try to re-live things. Because there are some things that are constant in our lives (for me, it's cookies, and music, and my friends, and my cousins, and my mom, and these days it's even my dad most of the time) that can always be present, and others that can't, I guess, like old loves and old feelings and old weights and old laughs, even if the joke is still funny, or the person is still beautiful, or whatever.

I guess that all I'm trying to say is that there are so many people and things I've never seen or smelled or touched or tasted, there are even words I've never said or written into anything at all.

I just want to drive and drive, but I can't be all places at once, because here at school is a good good place to be.

I need to stop stretching myself so thin and just be where I am.

Thank you thank you, where I am.

NVM. We're good.

Phew!

VOTE FOR OBAMA

Today was really scary. I went to the polling place and got in line and got my ballot and went into the booth. All fine. But then I pulled out the pen and opened the ballot and almost started crying. It has never been real to me, the idea that McCain could actually be our next president. I have been joking in my brain, thinking, "Oh, haha, I'm gonna vote for Sarah Palin because she's HOTT." But I never actually thought about the fact that some people might be walking in to the booth trying to hand John McCain our country. It was really really scary.

The choice has seemed so clear, so apparent to me from Day 1. I've been an Obama supporter since he ran for Senate. I guess it never seemed like much of a decision. But seeing other names there on that ballot made everything real. Terrifying and real.

So I hope that everyone goes out there and does what they can to save our country. I'm scared. But I've done my part -- I'm just crossing my fingers now and hoping really hard. We'll see...

Where'd my b-e-e-d go?

Basically, I have become an old man. I'm going to bed now. But I'm working at 6 am so I feel justified.

I've eaten weird foods tonight. Like a vague salad, some cool whip whipped cream, a bite of butter pecan ice cream, and oatmeal with raisins.

I am learning a lot about cats, like the different kinds that there are. From our clock. There's Selkirk Rex, Russian Blue, Persian, Maine Coon, and American Curl, to name a few. But that's just midnight to 4. You'll just have to wait for the rest.

That's enough. I'll leave you with a (partial) list of things we think are funny but no one else does:
1) Hamlet
2) Harvard
2b) Harvard Electrical School
3) CATS, the musical
4) Cameron Cornell dot net
5) Where'd my beej go? I can't find it.
6) Animals dressing up as other animals
7) Animals dressing up as themselves
8) Our dads
9) Unitards
10) Standing against the wall.
BONUS) Wambaaaaa, JH, AH, JHK (like the friendly ghost but with a K)

Allllll byyyyy myyyyse-e-elf...

Wear Your Love Like Heaven

Hello.

I think that what I need to do at this point in my life follows:

1. Listen to more records than I already do
2. Put together nice outfits for myself so I feel nice
3. Work on my abs
4. Make delicious warm vegetarian stews with lots of protein in them in my croc pot
5. Play my guitar more so my band, Old Dirty Boot, can get really famous

And I will continue to

1. Work on my play
2. Write poems
3. Not have a crush on anybody
4. Writewritewritereadreadread

Stuff that will never stop making me happy:

1. When Kinzie does German accents
2. The mismatched buttons I just sewed on my coat today
3. When my parents and I go to Chinatown
4. Murphy Lipman

Possible Halloween costumes:

1. George Washington
2. A green pea
3. Snoopy

I don't know.

Love,
Amy

Fiyah haus, JA!

Freshman year, Ernie would yell things out in a faux German accent every time we walked by Firehaus. I think we walked by once. Total. But he yelled some things that one glorious time. Yes he did. Now I'm the one who "tawks like ze Djermahns und makes ze djoks ubout ze Djermahn pahty wis ze peenis rhouund of ze beehr pong."

I should never be allowed in public.

I had grand plans to go to Firehaus tonight for about five minutes. But then I drove up and parked and observed the obscenely long line. So I cut in line and promptly saw a girl who was sitting and barfing a lot. And Firehaus guys were walking around going, "Whose friend is she?" ("Where'd my beej go? I can't find it.) So then I texted J3 and went home. To not-my-home.

I'm dog sitting again and it's good. We're going running tomorrow. Me and Merlin. The dog. Tonight we're gonna schmurfle. AKA he'll snore and drool on my pillow but I'm okay with it. We get each other.

Earlier, Annah and Amy and I looked at a lot of pictures from the past. There were so many epitomes and it was nice. I really like thinking about how things were and I also really like thinking about how much we're not like that anymore.

okbye.

Hiatus Done.

Yeah, okay, I'm back. There's something vaguely intimidating about posting for the first time in a while-- like, "my post's gotta be so brilliant to make up for lost time." Or something. But whatever, man, whatever. It's all chill up in hurr.

School is in full swing. I made it through a really intense two weeks of midterms/papers and I'm feeling alright about things now. Actually, I feel so on track in a lot of areas of my life, and that's something that doesn't usually happen. I often get really on top of one thing or another, but then something else slides. But right now, I'm kicking butt in a few of my classes that are hard, and I'm working out and eating right (and I've lost 8 lbs), and I'm sleeping and socializing and, yes, my room is messy, but let's be honest-- when isn't it messy?

And I just bought a spontaneous plane ticket to go to Boston for the end of the week before Thanksgiving break. I'll get to see my kids and my various Boston friends and for a day or two, I'll visit my friends who go to Smith and Hampshire. [Perhaps I'll even get to meet Daisy?/Michelle, wanna go to Tip Top Thai at some point when I'm there?] Basically, I can't wait to be back in Boston where I am a happy pup because Rachel and Alexander are there and so are many other great people/places/things. And I will get some JP Licks.

I'm skipping Jewish Storytelling right now so I can "do some homework" but really I'm just watching Grey's Anatomy and doing some good ol' sitting. Maybe I'll read for class now. Yep, that's what I'm going to do*.







*Let's be honest: I'm going to go get a spoonful of Cool Whip and watch another episode of Grey's. Duh.